Assholes

Why are people such assholes?
I was watching a video on youtube and the comments that were made from the bitches from Britain are just fucking ridicules. This people are sitting at home and talking shit about OUR soldiers and America. If you don’t live in America don’t sit there and talk shit about us because you don’t know anything about us and don’t talk about our soldier because since you are not brave enough to put your life on the line for people you don’t even know then shut the fuck up. My words for every single person that talk shit about America and our soldier fuck you. Don’t hate on us because you aren’t free.

Old soul I am

I have always thought that I am an old soul that I’m wise beyond my age to that there is truth.
My name Shannon means small but wise. So I think that’s why people come to be for advice or help because they know I will always help and be a good friend and always be there for them.

Masks

I think I hide my self from those around me. I sometimes hide what I really want to say to people and I select the words and thoughts I want to speak. I know I chose not to tell my friends certain things because I think there are going to judge me. I think I wear a mask to hide from the world my feelings and emotions.

Lost and waiting....................

Confusion sets in and I’m in a hazy
A hazy that’s so thick with voices telling me what to do
It becomes heavy and weight pressures down on me
The truth mixes with lies and is unreadable.
Standing there lost looking for a way out.
My eyes close and it goes dark

The other side

Sometimes I try to see the outcome to a question before I answer and most of the time I’m right but sometimes I wonder did I give the right one or should I have said something different and see where that one answer might take me. Most of the time I tell my self it was the right one but I wish I could step out and take a chance and see where that one different answer would take me. Would the out come be better or worse? I just don’t think in my life I can afford to take that step out and take a chance and answer differentially and have the out come be bad. It is said that you learn from your mistakes and become a better person from the experience, but that mistake can damage you and you’re lifted there to pick your self up and start again and I don’t see the reason to take that leap. Maybe it would make me a better person but I like the person that I am.

Quote of the day

Dream as if you'll live forever, live as if you'll die today.

Seeing people from the past

U know whts funny is when out of no where u see people from the past. I seen two people from my Queen days and one of them I don’t like and one tht was nice and had a cruse on me. He was a sweet guy u know always nice and said hi I was kinda shocked tht he was still in Riverdale. But the other guy was a bitch he was just so fuckin annoying and he still is by the way he gave me an attitude and he acted like he didn’t know me tht just pisses me off so much when u know tht tht persons knows u and they don’t say shit to u. Just on my nerves

Flirting or being nice

Now I am a nice person and I have a tendency to smile and joke with people that come into my job. And my coworker (He that shall not be named and u know who u are) says I flirt and calls me and my sis a “snake charmer” But I don’t look at it as flirting. I guess my personality is considered to be flirtatious. But I don’t see it I mean let me give the back ground on this. Alright I’m working and a guy signs up to get on the computer and his turn comes up and I call his name and put on. And then the computers are closed down and he comes out and gets ready to go home and I’m doing the closing announcement and I mess it up. And he comments on it and I smile and laugh and say yeah I did mess it up. He smiles back and jokes with me about it and I smile and laugh and I didn't think i was flirting i just didn't want to be rude and tell him to shut up. So I don’t think I was flirting, I think I was being nice. And the coworker says i do it all the time and i just keep on reeling them in. But i don't see it that way.

Life and Relationships

Shy and silly I am
Slowly being shown to the world
A world of new fun ways
Becoming more a person
Because of friends
Being persuaded
And being the a persuader
I grow to a new person
But this new world has consequences
I take them on but I loss my innocence
In the process
Can I fully give in to the wishes of other?
Can I still be me if I do?
Do I loss a friend if I do?
Or will I gain a lover, devotee, and a fan?
Why do I have to make the choice?
Why will their be consequences if I do?
Help is what I look for but will it be the
Right kind that I need?

Superstars and Regulars

You know what I hate, I hate when superstar basketball players mess with the regular people cause they think its funny and I personally don’t. Just to have fun they mess with the regulars like myself and that just pisses me off. If you a superstar don’t mess with the regulars cause you have nothing else to do. The superstars don’t think about people feelings and that can seriously mess a person up. So for all of you superstar basketball players don’t mess with the regulars, just leave them alone, if you just gonna make funny of them because you want to, don’t just don't.

"Lets just keep it between us"

What does it mean when a guy says “let’s just keep it between us?”
Now I told this certain someone that I just want to be friends and he just keeps on asking me the same damn questions. And I'm getting tried of turning him down and I’m running out of ways of doing it. But his kinda growing on me and I don’t want to go out with him but I don’t want to be mean and stop the friendship I have with him. I just don’t know what to do, God I’m so confused its not funny. Someone help?

Drama and not the Theater kind

Drama
Without Drama what would high school be like?
I don’t think teenagers can go with out the Drama. Girls depend on drama to keep a friendship or a relationship going. Guys just like to start drama and most of the time they don’t know they do it. But would high school be better without drama?
People say drama is just in high school, but that is so not true drama carries on into college and your life after college and its always the same pity shit it was in high school and God help us we just can’t get away from the drama of high school, life, and people.

from you to me from my convictions

i can't stop the tears that fall from my eyes because of the hurt i get every time words come from your mouth such hateful and evil words you speak why do you do this when you know i can't stand by myself with out you when you use me and then pick me back up only to do it again why the hurt? Why you? why me? Why can't you see that you are no good and that i waste away under you. Please just let me go for i can live.

Pressure and its just too much

Pressure
I hate when people just sit there and pressure you and when you tell them the answer to the question they ask they get all pissed off cause it isn’t the right one and then they go ahead and ask it ten different ways and you give the same damn answer………..
Guys do this shit all the time and it stating to get on my fucking nerves
Especially one dude in particular he is a friend but he wants to be something more but I just can’t do it. I will admit that I like him just a little tiny bit but I just don’t see the relationship
And I told him that but he just isn’t getting it so I don’t know what I’m going to do.